She Pisses Me Off Sooo Much!!!?

The person im mad at is my Grandama.. and most are gunna think im just a cow.. But .. Iv been depressed and thinking of sucide and in the process of that.. iv started Cutting and drinking And one day i was supposto go shopping with my grandama But i was too tired to go soo.. my grandama got the great idea to clean my room while i was sleeping And she found my cutting tools,And some alcohol bottels.. (I am still very mad at my self for not hidding them good enough) So she showed my mother and she called the mental help people,And now im seeing a counsler for my depression and suicdal thoughts... Sure thats great.. But the problem is My grandama Comes over everyday stratens my room up,And says things like i have no mother,And offes me to come live her(she lives across the road) And shes soo ******* dam nosey about everything.. She wants to know when i have my appotments,what we talked about,And finnaly after 2 weeks of not really talking her shes finnaly thinking i might be mad at her..